This is me. This is my history, my past. This is how I have become who I am. From now on, I shall be writing in lifeofaudrey . I have outgrown this blog but this is not the end of the book, just time for the next chapter.

A tout a l'heure

I went on msn at my cousin's place last night. It has made me miss msn soo much. Since calling people and talking on the phone has gone out of vogue and I'm generally to half arsed to actually bother calling people, msn is my only way to a real conversation with friends in Canberra. I talked to Lory last night for the first time in ages and it made me realise just what I've been missing. I resolve to sell my one and only PC game and hawk my one and only valuable ring and then not spend my pay on shit stuff so that I'll be soon able to afford a wireless card for my lappy. Then I can take advantage of the uni's free wireless that is all over the campus. Hooray! Now I just need to convince everyone in Canberra to drop whatever they're doing during the day and sit at home on msn and talk to me.

You're bored and unsatisfied. You want something but you can't place you finger on it. Sex might fill the gap, sex usually scratches the itches. Shame you don't have any on tap at the moment. Not even any stored away for emergencies. Dammit!

I have lots of things to blog about but I highly doubt that I'll get to all of them. Uni is going not horribly. I'm being terribly slack and not doing any extra study and yesterday I didn't go to 3 lectures so I'm feeling pretty guilty at the moment. I handed in my insect collection today. It was pretty shit compared to a lot of the other ones so I'm going to have to try harder in my exam. Berk! I'm dreading exams. Not only have the schedualed them all the way to the end of June but one of them is worth 85%!!! I'm completely screwed!

Manny is sick. It's not anything to do with him eating that cigarette, he's got an incredibly bad chest infection. He's lost almost half his body weight and is now just a bag of bones. I got him some antibiotics last friday and he spent the weekend barely moving and just sleeping under my donna. I literally had to bring the food and water to him because he was too weak to move about. He's picked up a bit now, he's still wheazing and he hasn't gain any weight (despite the extra treats I've been shoveling down his throat) but he moves about on his own. The vet says if he hasn't made significant improvements by Friday then it's probably not an infection and its more likely to be tumours in his lungs. She said I could get x-rays done to find out but they would cost $200 and if he did have any tumours then I'd just have him put down straight away anyway. I can't bare to let him suffer, it's killing me to watch him now. If he doesn't get better I'm not going to bother with x-rays or the vet. My ecology practical demonstrator worked with obese rats for his honours project and part of his work involved humanely euthanising rats. So if it comes to the worst I'll ask him if he could or better yet, guide me through it. I don't see the point in paying a vet to do it when I can probably get it done by a person I know and trust. But hopefully it won't come to that.

Next topic. I managed to be 20 minutes late to work on my first day of my new job. I got lost trying to find the school where I pick the kid up from. The worst part about that was that I wasn't home when the other kid who walks home from school, arrived. He went to the neighbours house who returned him not long after we got home. I felt awful and then I felt worse when I had to explain what happened to their parents later that night. Luckily the mum understood and said it was all good but I know that while she's telling me not to worry about it, she's also going to be watching me closer to see if I stuff up again. I'm hoping it's a long time before my next mistake because this job pays well and is piss easy. Also, I miscalculated my hours and it turns out that I won't need to find a third job! If I'm careful and don't waste my money, I'll be able to buy my food and petrol AND have a tiny bit for myself too! YAYAYAY!

I'm going to my aunt's place for dinner tonight!! I get a good meal and I don't have to cook it or wash the dishes afterwards! I can't think of any eloquent ways to end the entry so this is it.

Fin

I now have 2 jobs!! One more and I should be able to afford groceries AND petrol!

In other news, Manny ate half a cigarette at midnight last night and cost me $140 in emergency vet bills. I'm running on a couple of hours sleep, I started classes at 9am and I have to work this afternoon. I'm happy though cos Manny is fine now and my mummy and sister arrive in Melbourne today and they've brough Dropso down with them! Things are good!  .... In a not great kind of way.